Life at a stand still

my life seems so gray now with a love life but at least i'm picking up slowly on my social life (well it's a start anyway)

I hve been through alot Lately an welli just dont know what to do my ex left me for anyother guy an well it's tore me to pieces to think that he would rather spend most of his time wht his friends instead of with me an most of them just garduated!! THERE R GOING TO BE LEAVING AN GOING AWAY TO COLLEGE!!! I"LL STILL BE HERE now imma turn gay an hav this guy (his friend) named yurie write me somethingon facebook This what is said "HA HA Tevin broke up with your ball headed a$$ lol bye B*tch" After reading that i had desided i ever wanted to see or talk to him ever again i fell like i hate him but i still thing about him with every passing day that goes by. How could he Tell Someone who wasn't in OUR relationship that was trying to break us up from the beginning you broke u with me,How could he do that an the day he broke up me he said " i Still love you" he lied to my face i swore my heart to him Twice not once but TWICE!! An he sat there an did that i never wnat to see him ever again for as long as i live i feel so betrayed an violanted that i let him get so close to me an everything turn out like this.

An if the day comes where he has no one left all his friends have moved away an he has no one to spend anytime with an he for some werid reason desides to come back HE BETTER HAVE A DAMN GOOD EXPLAINATION FOR WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID AND I WANT HIM TO APOLOGIZE AN BEGG FOR MY FORGIVENESS!!! FOR THAT I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE ANYBOSY WHO DID THAT ME I FEEL LIKE HE'S LAUGHING IN MY FACE THAT I'M NOT HIS GIRLFRIEND ANYMORE I HURT EVERYDAY I DON'T SEE HIM I WAS READY TO END MY LIFE FOR HIM BUT HE STILL LEFT I TOLD HIM HOW MUCH I'D BE HURTING IF HE LEFT ME ALL ALONE HE STILL LEFT HE TURNED HIS BACK ON ME AN I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE PLEASE please help me you guys i'm at the end of my rope here.. please please i beg you help me

Day 1 the beginning of my summer vacation.

Well this beginning wasn't as happy an awsome as i thought it would be i was planning on-

~going to see my boyfriend

~go see my sisters in steelton

~ and see my old friends

But out if all of these i only get 1 i get to see my old friends ya ceria an leashia i'm going to see them later today at like 3: 30 or a bit later an as for seeing my boyfriend he's gone ghost on me i haven't seen or heard from him since the last day of school.
but besides that my sisters are fighting an now 1 is coming back to harrisburg and i was going to steelton to see her! an now i have more stuff to worry about i'm bored tired an now out of stuff to do for my summer.

Rough....

Man today was a hill

1st i got my phone taking in 2nd pd.
an someother things i hate running low on time i'll talk to you guys soon see ya love ya bye

So Tell me tell me.....

So i changed my back round an my profile picture it puts me at peace somehow i really like it....