Creating such a whimsical view of the things around me... my days flow like blood dripping from a deep wound... i can't describe to you why i see it soo it's just the way it feels to me.....
The Wind chilling my brittle bones...like the sharp words of my Love in anger with hate toward others.i can't tell how much i'd long to be able to completely forget myself in him as much as i want to i can't forget my first love the Man who scared me so much i bretanse me from unleashing ym full potential of love Apon the one i'm with now..(Eyes tearing up) how will i ever be able to become the beautiful,loving housewife i long to be in my heart if i can't open up anymore. the damage he's done to me Set my heart into a spiral that even he can't stop.
The beating of my fragle heart somewhat still longs for him...if i continue this way i'll lose him and i'll be alone again. If i'm alone i see things that scare me to the point of suicide but the though of current love brings be back to the fantasies of the Family we'll have when were older...
I can't wait till my 21 birthday then my dreams will become reality He'll prepose and i will become the women i've always wanted to be....i can start a family and go to work...and do what ever i want..(sigh) Such lovely thoughts...i sometime si wish i could peek into the future and see if i'm right about the things i bost about my future... i hope so..i really really hope so..
~ Well you stay for me..? Be with me....? Forever...? ~
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