Up there is the music i have playing my head but this the song i'm listening to right nw as i'm typing this. { Animelyrics.com Gundam seed destiny opening 2 Pride full }
I had a weird adult rated Dream last night and well it had my Husband and My first love in it i mean i would understand if were just my husband but him just why i'm not thinking about him anymore thanks 2 him i hurt tevina whole lot and nowadays i think he only trusts our future halfly.
I wish i had never met that heart breaker Le'mir then i would be a Hell of a lot happier with my husband.
but over the week end, i been missing him phiscally..i mean the way he huggs me and kisses me and the things he says to me just the mention of them makes me melt... his voice in my ear..makes my tremble and Mix with everything i've every known i just go into my absolute happiness state when he treats me the way he does so sweetly just like a princess..no a goddess. I'm his goddess sure he doesn't worship me at leats not on the outside he doesn't but on the inside i know he's screaming my name.. he told me something..that made me want to go kill my self (not that way the way your thinking of) I wanted to go end it all so that i could die a happy girl... He told me " you make me the happiest guy on earth being able to wake up every morning just and only to see and speak to you, you make my world rotate, your the foundation of the passion Burning in the very depths of my heart. You are my Wife.
That Made me want to die a happy a womeni don't anything else anyone else could make me that happy i mean for someone to have feelings just for knowing me..? everyone else i kniow rather wished they never met me becasue i'm stupid i get in the way i'm selfish and that i'm of to no use to anyone and half the time i believe that...because that's i'm treated all the time. i'm so Saddened by everything in my daily life i don't even think it's with living anymore. but ican't kill myself because then i'll leave my darling husband,Older Sisters,Memorable teachers,Mentors,and friends and Children to be Behind. So i'll keep Living the life to become the best At my novels and my art. And don't worry i'm not pregnant.. (i was talking about when i'm older) i'll work hard So that i can save up the money for my dream house.
So thank you all for being there with me through it all... I love you all.
Salome Marie gladis lee hall~
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