Well.......

Well i dunno what to do I Start my Christmas Break today i get out at 1:30? an hour early but i dont really think it matters Tevin desided he wanted to come to school today an Act as if nothing happened like Usual i swear...i just want him to DIE sometimes but im love him to death..but i'm extremely Pissed my Birthday is only a a Few weeks away ! 17th B-day here i come *Smiles* i hope this years Birthday doesn't suck like Last year well i think i should get going i think the bells about to ring Love u Guys Happy Holidays!


~LOVE Shizaya~

My 40th !!? Post ? eheheheh

Things these days Are just Crazy guys Classes Tv shows Life itself whaat the hell is going on!!? Man typing with My left hand it's really Annoying. Life Is really Getting Harder an Harder to live as my Days go on What's with my Life Some days Seem a Hell of a easier to live than Others i've been thinking about Being More open (yes even more Open than i am Ususally) an Honest with those i hold Close Like my Husband for Example for My Good friend Domonic or Treyshawn or My Dad well i'm honest with my dad but someties it's just really Hard to tell him Certain things sometimes cuz ya know He's a Dad and I'm A girl an that Sorta thing..But right now Thsi is one of those Times where life just isn't worth Living.....Honestly...

Men Who needs umm ( I DOOO! :'(

i Hate guys sometime thier sooo Meqn!! > : C i mean i go out of my way to invite my Husband to my house on Saturday cuz my dad said he couldnt come over on Friday he says "yes he'll come" But then it's 7 then 8 thn 9 O'Clock he never Shows : C Be Back later

OM the Freak G"ZZZ!!!!

M Friend Destiny wants to Follow my Blog! this is SOOOO cool i've had Followers befor but not on Eblogger "i tell u what" (a saying from Hank Hill a Character from King of ther Hill) Lol Ohh man i'm on Page 19 of 30 an the bell just rung this is Crap!! Gotta go bye !!

Well Here's to Halloween

I'm going to be starting a New Blog soon sorry i haven't Been here in a while i've been Sorta Depressed Sad Lonely an i've been wondering what have i been doing with my life up until now an i just remembered in about 3 in a half Months i'm going to be Turning 17 years old an then i thought " holy Crap i'm going to be 18 soon!!, i dont have anything together no Job so Apartment information Other things like that Goshh" I feel so Old even tho i'm still 16 now i feel like i should i have everything figured out already but i dont i feel like a Failure Please foregive me everyone *Bows in Deepest Apologies* HEy if u guys get a Chance Look at my other blog i'm making in Honor of my Idea of Writing a story about my life but the thing is it's going to be how i veiw my life in my Head so i warn u now it will get Very Very Very Graphic...i'm sorry to not tell this is in person but i am a Pervert i'm sorry but i am i can't help it i Love guys...i just Ohh man there soo HOT!! WOOO! love umm love  umm love umm!!

~See ya later Shikal Out!~

WOW!

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Life at a stand still

my life seems so gray now with a love life but at least i'm picking up slowly on my social life (well it's a start anyway)

I hve been through alot Lately an welli just dont know what to do my ex left me for anyother guy an well it's tore me to pieces to think that he would rather spend most of his time wht his friends instead of with me an most of them just garduated!! THERE R GOING TO BE LEAVING AN GOING AWAY TO COLLEGE!!! I"LL STILL BE HERE now imma turn gay an hav this guy (his friend) named yurie write me somethingon facebook This what is said "HA HA Tevin broke up with your ball headed a$$ lol bye B*tch" After reading that i had desided i ever wanted to see or talk to him ever again i fell like i hate him but i still thing about him with every passing day that goes by. How could he Tell Someone who wasn't in OUR relationship that was trying to break us up from the beginning you broke u with me,How could he do that an the day he broke up me he said " i Still love you" he lied to my face i swore my heart to him Twice not once but TWICE!! An he sat there an did that i never wnat to see him ever again for as long as i live i feel so betrayed an violanted that i let him get so close to me an everything turn out like this.

An if the day comes where he has no one left all his friends have moved away an he has no one to spend anytime with an he for some werid reason desides to come back HE BETTER HAVE A DAMN GOOD EXPLAINATION FOR WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID AND I WANT HIM TO APOLOGIZE AN BEGG FOR MY FORGIVENESS!!! FOR THAT I WOULD NEVER FORGIVE ANYBOSY WHO DID THAT ME I FEEL LIKE HE'S LAUGHING IN MY FACE THAT I'M NOT HIS GIRLFRIEND ANYMORE I HURT EVERYDAY I DON'T SEE HIM I WAS READY TO END MY LIFE FOR HIM BUT HE STILL LEFT I TOLD HIM HOW MUCH I'D BE HURTING IF HE LEFT ME ALL ALONE HE STILL LEFT HE TURNED HIS BACK ON ME AN I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE PLEASE please help me you guys i'm at the end of my rope here.. please please i beg you help me

Day 1 the beginning of my summer vacation.

Well this beginning wasn't as happy an awsome as i thought it would be i was planning on-

~going to see my boyfriend

~go see my sisters in steelton

~ and see my old friends

But out if all of these i only get 1 i get to see my old friends ya ceria an leashia i'm going to see them later today at like 3: 30 or a bit later an as for seeing my boyfriend he's gone ghost on me i haven't seen or heard from him since the last day of school.
but besides that my sisters are fighting an now 1 is coming back to harrisburg and i was going to steelton to see her! an now i have more stuff to worry about i'm bored tired an now out of stuff to do for my summer.

Rough....

Man today was a hill

1st i got my phone taking in 2nd pd.
an someother things i hate running low on time i'll talk to you guys soon see ya love ya bye

So Tell me tell me.....

So i changed my back round an my profile picture it puts me at peace somehow i really like it....

The end of the year.

the end of the year is here already phew...man the year went by fast....i have no idea what i'm going to be doing over the summer. me an my boyfriend are beginning to start over from the beginning i've reading my  horoscopes lately an i read my boyfriends but he says the horoscopes for his sign where i read them isn't very accurate.  but what ever i'm barely interested in what he says nowaya days... i wonder will you guys still be at linlcon next year.. when i come to visit..? i hope you all are because if not i'll miss you guys... i'm not sure if i'll be able to write things on my blog over the summerunless i can get on it from my phone..cuz i just found out on sunday i can get on facebook through my phone look me up some time anyof you!! i mean ms.Gordon Mrs.Whitehead, Mrs.Allemen, and that means you too Mr.G you got a girlfriend now it's about time i'll be honest i was in love you at 1 point mr.G that's why i would work my hardest on my art just to inpress you...but i knew that my love would never be returned but Anyway (blush) i just wanted to write something else so you guys won't worry so much by not hearing from me.... i might also be getting an ereader soon i'm crossing my fingers ( : D )

Love you guys later!!

Shikal~Sect~Sagattinis~ and everyone else..

Happy days approching.

heheheheh i'm depressed because i left the love of my life but i want him to reaize how he makes me fells but until he does he can go be selfish and evil somewhere else he was being completely unfair. i mean he won't let me be close to him but he'll let another female that's a good friend of our's get close to him how does that sound that's wrong and flippin' evil to me...any way i'm coming to see you guys tomorrow Mr.G try to stay for as long as you can after school i want to show you my new versions of my picures an how they've gotten even awsomer!!!! Now i can draw better than you now Mr.G muhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.......

Love you guys later!!

~Shikal......

soory the site was down for a little while.

Hey you guys i'm single now i'm sad yeah but i'm ok..i'm sure i
ll be ok...i'll come vist you guys tomorrow Love you guys.



Thanks for the comment Mr.G nice hat btw lol : D

(crying) Loveholic Nice dream full version is today i love that song.

See you guys tomorrow.

Hey you guys are you guys worried..?

Don't worry i'm all good now so please don't worry i know some of my entries probably had you worried but i'm fine really and don't worry i'll come back to visit soon maybe next week sometime and i'll brig some of my best drawings from this year to show you guys and i'll start on that book for the little kids i'm thinking of a title still but it will be a really good book (smile) I'll write again tomorrow Love you guys.

Shikal~

Thinking.

Well i'm not really sure what i'm writing about today. Moeyo ken opening is today's song is sounds so cool and calming it's slowly making me feel better i guess.. and also Akuna matada it's really funny did i ever mention how sexy Simba looks like when he's older. And now One piece these jams i haven't listened to in ages...It fells so good to hear these again I feel like the old days are coming back (sigh) Oh cartoon network look at what you've become...

Anyway i'll see ya guys again tomorrow. Love you all

Here are the lyrics for 1 piece's opening nah never mind Spider rider opening and also SHAMAN KING!!!

Life as i know it.

My life as i know is pretty much ok for now just a day ago i felt like i was going to break up with my boyfriend because I so called had a problem but i don't really think he see's it the way i do. But it's ok we made up and that's all that matters. (Smile) i found some thing interesting a very very fine proxy that i can use at will now like i am at this moment and i'm jamming to this ugly yet beautiful world on guitar It's awsome! Sorry i hadn't written anything for a while i promise now i'll stay in touch because i don't want you guys to start worrying about me but you should cause it's only natural i mean you guys love me right? So i guess it's ok to be loved in weird ways sometimes Anyway i won't be on much longer today because i have to go to the counsler i wounder why? Probably baecause i'm failing like 3 of my classes more like 2 really becaus my teacher made a mistake. any way see ya letr stay cool you guys.

my day was a rinbu revolution!! (the jam of the day.)

isagiyoku kakkoyoku ikite-yukou (Just a long long time) tatoe futari hanarebanare ni natte mo (Let go of me) Take my revolution	Let's go on living our lives heroically, with style. (Just a long long time) And even if the two of us should be separated, (Let go of me) Take my revolution.
[Instrumental]	[Instrumental]
hikari sasu garden te wo toriai [1] chikaiatta nagusameatta "mou koi wa nido to shinai yo" tte	In the sunlit garden, hand in hand, [1] we drew close, and soothed each other with the words: "Neither of us will ever fall in love again."
sonna tsuyoi kessoku wa katachi wo kae ima ja konna ni takumashii watashi-tachi no lifestyle everyday, every time (every time)	Our unity was so strong, it changed its form And now our lifestyle is so robust... everyday, every time (every time)
hoho wo yoseatte utsuru sashin no egao ni sukoshi no sabishisa tsumekonde (Revolution)

Let's go on living our lives heroically, with style. (Just a long long time) And even if the two of us should be separated, (Let go of me) Take my revolution.
[Instrumental]	[Instrumental]
hikari sasu garden te wo toriai [1] chikaiatta nagusameatta "mou koi wa nido to shinai yo" tte	In the sunlit garden, hand in hand, [1] we drew close, and soothed each other with the words: "Neither of us will ever fall in love again."
sonna tsuyoi kessoku wa katachi wo kae ima ja konna ni takumashii watashi-tachi no lifestyle everyday, every time (every time)	Our unity was so strong, it changed its form And now our lifestyle is so robust... everyday, every time (every time)
hoho wo yoseatte utsuru sashin no egao ni sukoshi no sabishisa tsumekonde (Revolution)	I'll take a bit of my loneliness, and cram it inside the smile I have in this picture of us cheek-to-cheek. (Revolution)
isagiyoku kakkoyoku ashita kara wa daremo ga furimuku onna ni naru tatoe futari hanarebanare ni natte mo kokoro wa zutto issho ni	As of tomorrow, I'll be such a heroic, stylish woman, everybody will turn and look back at me. But even if the two of us should be separated, our hearts will always be together.
[Short Instrumental]	[Short Instrumental]
ai wa okane de wa kawanai tte shitte-iru kedo "I" de okane wa kaeru no? [2] TEREBI de itte'ta	They say "Money can't buy love." I know that, but can love buy me money? [2] They said so on TV.
mukandou mukanshin kiri ga nai ne wakai ko minna sou da to omowareru no wa feel so bad! doushou mo nai ja nai (I feel so bad)	Apathy, indifference...It's so endless. That they think all young people are that way makes me feel so bad! But how could we help ourselves? (I feel so bad)

With the blankness.

Today i'm not sure what my day is suppose to  about or based on but whatever....i just want to go change this shirt it's extremely uncomfortable but i'm wearing it for the one's i love so i'll have to grin and bare it.

Besides that i feel Very colorful for some reason.

I am yerning.. i want...life..?

Up there is the music i have playing my  head but this the song i'm listening to right nw as i'm typing this. { Animelyrics.com Gundam seed destiny opening 2 Pride full }

I had a weird adult rated Dream last night and well it had my Husband and My first love in it i mean i would understand if were just my husband but him just why i'm not thinking about him anymore thanks 2 him i hurt tevina whole lot and nowadays i think he only trusts our future halfly.

I wish i had never met that heart breaker Le'mir then i would be a Hell of a lot happier with my husband.

but over the week end, i been missing him phiscally..i mean the way he huggs me and kisses me and the things he says to me just the mention of them makes me melt... his voice in my ear..makes my tremble and Mix with everything i've every known i just go into my absolute happiness state when he treats me the way he does so sweetly just like a princess..no a goddess. I'm his goddess sure he doesn't worship me at leats not on the outside he doesn't but on the inside i know he's screaming my name.. he told me something..that made me want to go kill my self (not that way the way your thinking of) I wanted to go end it all so that i could die a happy girl... He told me " you make me the happiest guy on earth being able to wake up every morning just and only to see and speak to you, you make my world rotate, your the foundation of the passion Burning in the very depths of my heart. You are my Wife.

That Made me want to die a happy a womeni don't anything else anyone else could make me that happy i mean for someone to have feelings just for knowing me..? everyone else i kniow rather wished they never met me becasue i'm stupid i get in the way i'm selfish and that i'm of to no use to anyone and half the time i believe that...because that's i'm treated all the time. i'm so Saddened  by everything in my daily life i don't even think it's with living anymore. but ican't kill myself because then i'll leave my darling husband,Older Sisters,Memorable teachers,Mentors,and friends and Children to be Behind. So i'll keep Living the life to become the best At my novels and my art. And don't worry i'm not pregnant.. (i was talking about when i'm older) i'll work hard  So that i can save up the money for my dream house.


So thank you all for being there with me through it all... I love you all.

Salome Marie gladis lee hall~

Getting older ?

Now that i'm 16 i feel slightly more older phsically i feel like i get out of breath a heck of a lot more easier now and i sorta feel as if now one wants me around anymore....i just feel like i might just not be of any use to anybody no one's ever happy to see me not my dad not my mom or my famliy or not even my beloved husband some times.....Most of the time i feel like he Hates me i piss him off so much maybe i should move with my Mom so i can go there and just Die.....no one would probably miss me anyway...... *sigh* no one loves me.....


My life is falling apart like a glass cup with no handle gently rolling off the egde of a table

it is enevitible...

Days Days Days

My Days feel like Thier just Melting away i feel like an Old women slowly Trying to Patch up her broken Hourglass With A Bunch of  Duck tape and sme other stuff that ain't doing Nothin'....

Anyway i'm going to change me Blogger  Picture and i'm re-creating a Facebook account and i have to create another Yahoo and a google Because having just 2 and a gmail isn't helping.

So i'll let you Know how everythigns going once my facebokk is up and running again (well not my old one my new one it's just slightly diffrent from my first one istead of ya know The First part of my first name it's The second Part (i'm not really saying it because for those who know me reading this you know it already.)

So i'll talk to you again See ya later.



~Shikal~

As the days go on by.

I'm in 4th Pd right now in School My Birthday just passed a few days ago and my dad took me to the Mall on Friday and i got some goodies Like a kingdom hearts 2 Fleece mini blanket and a Vampire knight Vol.3 Dvd And My sims Kingdom I had a fun Birthday even though i didn't have a Party i Got to spend my birthday with my boyfriend do it wasn't to bad plus i had me a Marble Cake that i bought iwth my own Money Those reading this i hope you feel happy for me and if your not that's just mean.   : (


Anyway I should get back to work So i'll try to post again Sometime this week



Toast to the New Year another chance to Please the one's we love new achievements new love and all that other good stuff.