Today i claim Thr-fry!!

Thr-fry is a thursday that feels like nothing but i friday to day i found sum good ass songs n im feeling good about that also my period if grief is over and i have new game at home to enjoy although i keeep getting killed i can play happy wheels or maybe like ive been feeling like get back in Disgaea 4 i miss it i think for Sly i only have alittle more to day b4 i complete all the stages n im kinda close to getting all the treasures but i just wanted to check in n everything ya know Hehh...and uh...my winter blister (i guess) Is almost gone :D Everyone have a great break i know i will *evil grin*

Life why do you curse me so....

Today at lunch i oractically snapped out im surprised i didnt like hit anyone on my way out.i mean i was really going through it on saturday with my dad n i text the one person who said he'd always be there for me. I'm extremely sad in tears and everything i text him and i get no answer.that was friday, the next day y know saturday my favorite cousint comes to visit me like she normally would on the weekends we have a good time then she goes home to her dads house i text him later on after she leaves still no answer then i text him sunday too AND STILL NOOOO ANSWER! So i'm like ooh...ok i'm guessing his phone's off he's gonna tell me that. Come monday today he comes to me all smiling, happy go lucky niot a care in the world kinda face "hey how's it going" Trying with ounce of my being not to spring up n ring his neck i simply turned my head away and told him im mad at you And usually when id say that he'd be all like "Why are you mad at me!?" But today he just brushed it of and said "Ok" And sat down in his usual spot waaaaaaay on the other side of the lunch table n i noticed on my way into lunch b4 anyone else had gotten there He's precious blonde friend Katie was at the table Giod i cant stand her so really i pissed off the moment i saw her i already knew what was gonna happen he was gonna walk in walk directly past me See her n get all happy like a cat with a pound of cat nip n be all Aww i missed you where have you been n this and that. And it seriously to my inner most fibers pisses me off!! I bet i fell disperatly ill and wasn't in school i bet only like 1 or 2 ppl would notice not counting any of my teachers. My Best friend Cosandra and Maybe Hayfer i bet if i was absent from school no body would really care but im always here n it's hard to miss my obvious face so when im not here you'd notice even though i like never talk. I mean he tells me all the time i want us to b friends and i'll always be there when u need me n stuff like that but when i needed you on friday in tears not knowing what to do at the very edge of the cliff of stress in my life ready to jump you were no where to be found My fantasies and the Men in my head that trully care gor me helped me through it while i slept so that i wouldn't wake up the next day walking around with the thought of Sueside running through my head. i hate it when ppl tell me there be there for me and when i actually do need them there not there to b honest there was only 1 person there for me n he's always been there well for as long as i've known him he's been there when i need'd him. i needed a ride sumwhere for a quick bite if he could take me he would if i needed to get outta the house for a while becuz i was feeling lonely he'd let me come over he's a really cool i know n i'm glad i met him. He's really sweet to me and i apreciate it and everything he's done for me. If there's anybody i can say has been a true friend to me it would b Bear :3 I love you buddy. Of all the ppl in my lifei know he is one person i know i can always turn too Has he makes my life alittle more bareable i guess thanks for that.

The usual plus alittle extra

Well right now i'm in my last class of the day which is my design for publications class it's pretty normal i guess becuz this smart ass chick that thinks she knows everything but barely ever comes to school a bunch of getto hood rats, gossip girls a new kid thats always getting trouble a quiet guy my 2 buds Liean and Marialezia and then there's me. Teacher's pet (althought i dont really do anything to be a teachers pet ) Ms.Saul is short, hyper, kind of annoying, mood swingish, <......< Likes to clear her throat alot like she's directing at some one which gets really annoying since she does it all class long and she can be a real pain and very talkative. This classis ok there's barely any talking besides in those rare moments when that one person has to ask "what are we doing?" Knowing thier not going to do the work in the first damn place any old way. personally i wish no one would ask that so i can sleep the whole class away and then school b over so i can go through my daily after school routine then go home n relax. Also the weather lately has been horrible. Besides the fact that i still dont have winter boots bugs because i have to walk around in the snow this slush across black ice and everything else in SNEAKERS!! n the bottoms r perfect for playing handball dont get me wrong but Snow and stuff like that? Rain is fine as long as the worlds not crying and there are like ankle high puddles everywhere then were cool were ok with rain but snow i cant do it my toes cant stand it my hands can't and neither can my face or me i just cant do it. I love the snow though just when im not ready like not having winter wear n things like that i hate it bcuz it ruins my clothes wastes time and just plain gets in the way. Anyway thought i totally didn't check or remember but i think this my first post for 2013 so far this year didnt start out horrible but March is really not that good for me stress is pullin' out all the stops to get me down and it's working i caught my self thinking about a person who doesn't care about me and doesn't want anything to do with me and it's got me all stirred up and angry n sad but i dont need to be thinking about that i wonder pop at home who takes excellent care of me n if that women doesnt wanna b apart of our happy lifestyle then forget her it still saddens be to think of the fact that you carried 6 children inside of you for 9 months each and screwed all thier lives up how could a person live with the thought that u completely ruined 6 childhoods i couldn't live with that the least i would have done if i had contact with any of them would b to apologize but this person doesnt even have the gull to fess up and do that. Pitiful..pitiful pititful person.....

See you all later

Mar~~ Out~\(^w^")/