I go to see Hayfer after 1st pd right to go get the 200 club pass he said he'd give me from yesterday and the one lady I have no idea what her name is but she's one of the other teacher's sharing the room with him and I knock on the door and everything and she's standing near the door and she says no kids allowed in the room and I'm pretty sure she wasn't calling me a kid but I’m obviously not a kid, kids are in Middle school I'm a young adult to whom are which occupy High schools so I know she wasn't calling me a kid. And besides that I was messing up my sentences while I was trying to remind him and I saw a tiny look in her face that stroke me as she wants me to go away, but I had come to see Hayfer for a specific reason just like any other time I come looking for him. I came for 3 reasons today to say Hi, see if he was feeling any better and to get my 200 club pass. And then the stupid thing happened. She decided it was ok to say she was married to Hayfer for 10 years. Haaaaa~! I almost laughed but at the time the only thing I wanted to do was rip her in half even though I knew it wasn't true. I've been in that room plenty of times and I’ve never once heard a Mrs. Hayfer fly through the air only a Mr. Hayfer so I knew for a fact since the moment those words slipped past her lips it wasn't true but it really ticked me because I’m pretty sure all the teachers in that room know how I feel about him and to be playing with someone’s feelings like that. It’s not cool or funny. And Of course in actuality I just brushed it off by say "Nu uhh" And Hayfer replied with "Yes huhh" and that struck me really deep down because that means he was in on that cruel joke on me I’m sure if he was meaning to hurt my feelings by it but it did only a little but still it hurt all the same. And after I finally got my pass I was turning to say bye to Hayfer n I got a door closed in my face kinda loudly almost as if she were slamming it That really made me mad. I didn't care right then at the time because the bell had rung n I needed to get to 2nd pd so I just pushed the thoughts inside my back-bone n swallowed it I was planning on having a good day n getting that Pass from Hayfer was supposed to kick off my happiness but it turned out like that n it's sour n I’m not as chipper right now I’m sad n tired now...I wish I could go home...I dunno what made him wanna do that to me, but I don't really think it was a very nice thing to do as his friend I just wanted to make sure he was feeling alright I’d be sad if he wasn't feeling well. *Sigh* It seems everyone I know is getting tired of me being around maybe I should just disappear for a while...Maybe then I can see the smiles I miss. But what if that was his actual reaction to his birthday card *pouts* Noooo~ I wrote those messages from the bottom of my heart and if he doesn't me seriously then what the heck man~!! *Sigh* it's not fair...No matter how much I care for someone most of the time they just brush it off or ignore it all together...I know he's better than that though he wouldn't do anything to hurt me like play a cruel joke on me like that. If he was just being playful I could have enjoyed it more if it were strictly between tot 2 of us and no one else including other people can make it awkward and weird especial if that the person your including could possibly have ill feelings toward me. But if she's trying to come between us that's not called for I wasn't planning on ganging up on him or anything, sure I’ve thought about it dozens of times but I couldn't do it because I adore the way things are now I can live with the way things are changing them would ruin a lot of things for me. *Sighs* But anyway I need to think about what I’m gonna do later on like 3 or 4 classes from now. To get off topic 7 classes isn't all that much I mean depending on your grade you have a certain amount of classes before lunch and also depending on your schedule as an 11th grader you have 4 classes before lunch and hey would u look at that your days practically already over 4 classes in the morning 3 classes in the early afternoon sounds pretty easy to me especially if u have that 1 class you can't stand earlier in the day. Anyways I need to go cheer myself up; hearing Ms.Shomper teach in the background behind me makes me miss being in her class. *Happy Sigh*
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