Yet another....

Today isn't going to be good day and this post is going to be shirt *Probably a lie* I'm currently heating up water so I can eat some oatmeal before I wonder out into the cold to walk to work. Then I'll have to deal with the stressful environment created by my co-workers plus I'm gonna be there for 8 hours and probably not get my well earned break because were too busy. I was super pissed and tired yesterday because 1 it was valentines day , 2  shouldn't have been working, 3 I should have been home, 4 I was tired as hell and 5 my dad was sick. but even of I told them that my dad was sick and that I couldn't come in they wouldn't let me use that excuse more then once because they didn't have proof, but oh ho hoooo I could have given them plenty of proof. But I'm not super into recording my dad throwing up and shaking in pain, so I passed on that. I sucked it up and went to work. I got yelled at to stop complaining because I was too loud about it and the other workers could hear it. 1st of all I've been working here for maybe little over a month now and this fast passed environment is extremely stressful, I should be able to complain as much as I fucking want. 2 if you don't like me complaining you could always send me the fuck home, but no you didn't. 3 I have a right to free speech so if I wish to complain fucking let me. 4 my heels hurt ALOT. 5 I wouldn't wanna hear you complaining because your dumbass didn't even do anything, your poking around on the computer doing god knows what and not  helping around the place yet wanting everything done at once. Like just because your a superior to myself and the other employees in the place doesn't mean you get to sit on your ass all day and not fucking help. That pissed me off too because I was dizzy, I hadn't eaten because I rushed out the door, trying to not be late to this horrible ass place. My heart was aching because I was worried about my dad and plus I missed my honey like crazy. I think I'm just gonna start looking for something a little easier. If not maybe "possibly" going back to my first job. the worse thing I'd ever have to deal with were angry customer calls and piles upon piles of undone clothes to be refolded. I sort of regret leaving. It was for the most part a friendly and calm working environment and I got to help people, it was nice. Younger me left because of conflict but it may be hard to get back in now, but I dunno. :I Anyways I think my water should be ready I'll be back home in awhile and if I'm not totally drained I'll let you guys know how my day went hopefully it wasn't too too crazy. See you guys later. <3 :c

Update time you guyyz.

A few things have happened and well things are a teensy bit hard right now. well my dad is sick, my job sucks , my bank s merging, I found my first grey hair , my dad is sick again , he's throwing up and getting really sluggish I'm worried. I'm trying to stay positive, it not working that well for me. People a talk too aren't helping my mood either. Some people just never grow up , I hope they snap out of it before it it's late. I'm trying to get my pops back in working condition, because for the about the last 5 days now I haven't really been able to have any alone time with my honey and I can tell he getting alittle anxious, and he's trying to be supportive, but he wants to enjoy me but can't because my dad is sick and then he makes himself sad then I have to cheer him up and THIS IS BEEN NOT A GOOD MONTH!! So far. Things shall get better and if things don't cheer up then I'll just have to make a wish, I haven't used any of my good karma lately and I'm sure it's only increased which means I have more good karma to use. I just needed to let you guys know what's going on with me I haven't put up anything over here since last month, like literally last month. But ya know---- *hear instance wind whipping outside my windows* Grreeeeeeeeeeeaaat.....Did I almost mention it's STILL FUCKING WINTER!! Yeah there's also that. I need some sun ASAP no cold, no wind chill no 35 Mph winds knocking into building and shit. I just want some nice sun I can walk around in and look cute. Anyways I need to go check this ginger tea I'm making for my dad that will hopefully help him with this nausea he's been having for about a week now wish me luck and I'll be back with another update in a few days. Love you guys See you later and thank you for your support.

Heello :D I've got neeeeeeeeewz for ya

Hey guys it's me again of course >:3 Well I'm not sure if any of the people that read my posts on this blog read any of my stories on my 2nd blog but just incase you don't and our bored enough to read through these silly posts please if you have time go over to my 2nd blog and show my stories some love. Pretty pleeeeeeease with sugar and whatever kind of ice cream you like on top because not everyone likes cherries. -____- the link for my 2nd blog is in my profile. And I'll also give it to your right here.


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I really work hard on my stories. It may not seem like it because maybe some things don't make sense or there may be some words missing and small misspellings but this is normal. I'll still try my best so I hope your support in the end and I'll keep working hard for you guys. :D I also wanna get my art out there. So. I think I'll add in a few of most recent pics in this post and on my 2nd blog I'll be releasing an all new story called 4 devils it'll be awesome I'd been thinking about it and I'm completely committed to it. I have my characters , my storyline and everything else I need Chapter art and all.  just ended a series I had going for way to long and I'm sorry if you've been reading it and I didn't end it sooner Things happened but I made it right and I hope you enjoyed the ending. :D Anyways I'm preparing a small filler and teaser images for today on that blog until Monday when the first chapter of 4 devils will be put out. I hope you guys look forward to reading it put a lot of work into it. So please please show me your support *smiles* I should get going though this post was planned to be short but as usually I don't know how to shut up. :P I'll see you guys in a few days. See yaa <3

 

 

Storms.........coming near you...

Hey everyone sorry about the absence between posts, been trying to get use to my hours at work but the hours are all over the place so it's hard to do that Anytwades that's not what this post is about. This post right here is about my desperate attempt to get my ass to this low paying job in a damn snow storm...so this morning I get up at about 5:00-5:10 right and leave the house at about 6:10, I had totally forgotten about the supposed 12+ inch snow storm we were suppose to be getting where I lived,  walk outside and I'm met with snow up to my damn knees......When I tell you I was already ready to back to sleep just because I just thrown my legs into such a deep dune of fucking snow, I was upset, hungry, sleepy and cold all at the same time. I decide to suck it up so I don't lose my job. So I run back upstairs, change into my snow boots and head back out into this storm down the street to the bus stop for work. The walk to that bus top woulda normally took me about 3 mins to do took me about 10 to do this morning. The snow fall was thick like someone was shredding chesse over my damn head it was hard to see the wind was blowing and the snow trying to eat my knees wasn't helping.  I finally get the bus stop there's 1 other person and old man. Standing, waiting but he was there before me. We talked a little, I moved around trying to stay warm I'd been standing out there for about 20 mins to half and hour under this heavy snow fall knee deep snow powder just to get to my job. I called 5 times!! Not an answer any of he 5 times , I only saw about 5 cars since I left my house and made it to the bus stop. I tried calling a few more times on my way home, still no answer. So I said fuck it, I headed home and undressed and went and laid in bed. Once this storm blows over I don't wanna hear any crap about any of the days the storm was going on and I had to be at work, be cause it was never going to happen. It was so bad here, Our mayor even ordered a ban on travel until the storm until further notice. If anyone was caught driving outside they'd be smacked with a heavy fine. The only people allowed to be out on the roads driving are snow plows and emergency personnel. Which is totally understandable I think t's suppose to be snowing for at least 2 days straight so if it was knee high on me today at like 6am and it's been snowing all day long I wouldn't be surprised in the slightest  if it was up to about the middle of my stomach the next time I go out. Anyways that's the end of my rant whatever hours I was suppose to be working from today until this coming Wednesday aren't happening because there aren't going to be any busses and I can't catch a ride from anyone and I'm definitely not walking 1.5mi from my house in knee deep or higher snow to work for 8+ hours making only 7.35 a damn hour!! Now If I was making about 10 or so I wouldn't complain as much but for pay that low don't expect me to start jumping through hoops, fuck that !!




Anyways wherever you are if you've been hit by a snow storm or anything please be careful out there and remember to bundle up I'll see you guys soon. Bye :D <3

My first day at work. :D

Hello everyone it's been about 10 days since my last post , so I'm gonna tell you guys about my 1st day at my new job. I learned to prepare breakfast meats , eggs , biscuits, and cinnamon raisin biscuits. I can't wait to feed some bread to the charbroiler it looks suu cool :O  for my first day It was a good day I'd have to say nothing stupid happened so that was good. Anyway I have to go out and get some new shoes for work so :I I'll catch you later in a few more days. Sorry for sucha short post but I gotta a lot of to do today, I'll see you guys later Byeeeeeee~

Thoughts.......

Hey guys it's me again , Have you ever run into a chick who is just seriously so self absorbed with herself that she thinks she's like the most attractive female alive especially when someone gives her a compliment. Like listen bitch.....your not as cute as you think you are, take a seat. PLEASE lol. If you know someone like that stay away from them because before long you'll start thinking that beauty is everything then you'll be breaking your damn back just to look good, only work that hard to make yourself look good for yourself or someone you really care about. Also if they don't wanna be with you because you don't look as good as you did when you first met when you may have been trying to impress the dude and so you busted your hump to make yourself look good for him n now that you've stopped and went back to looking normal he doesn't want to be with yo anymore, drop him. He shouldn't like you for your looks it should be your personality, your thoughts, your goals, your life style (unless it's seriously unhealthy)  that he should love about you, your looks should be a bonus. If he can't love you as soon as you wake up he doesn't deserve you. Looks aren't everything I can tell you from personal experience, I'm not the most beautiful girl ever, but my bf doesn't care. He actually prefers seeing my hair when it's all matted and curly after I wash it and it looks like a puffy tumbleweed, he doesn't care that I have occasional ache, that my eyebrows are a little bushy, that I should like 50 yr old man over the phone when I first wake up in the morning, he doesn't care if I'm thick or if I look like weigh 30 pounds (if I looked too thin he'd probably tell me to go eat something XD ) . The point is that your looks should only be a bonus to whoever your in a relationship with, it shouldn't be what's keeping you together. Before I start to rant out of anger I'm gonna go and draw I gotta request to do, I'll catch you guys later <3

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

Hey what's up guys !! Happy new year again :P I'm attempting to keep myself busy, by well just about anything I can think of because mother nature decided she wants to try and ruin my birthday week -____- So I'm just gonna relax, eat chocolate, read Hot Gimmick S, watch some YouTube videos, make plans for my birthday, and maybe draw abit, don't worry I'll be keeping up with both my blogs and my YouTube channel. I'm gonna get to the stuff so I'll catch you guys later sorry this was soo short I'm not really in a huge writing mood I know surprising right XD