As a growing adult more then often I have to make decisions about all kinds of things. Such as my social circle. I don't talk to large group of people to begin with, but even with that there are a lot of people I know that I talk too. there aren't a large clump of people that go out of their way to talk to me. Because well I'm not really a social person. I'm like this for a reason. I've seen what can and what does happen to people who decide they wanna have large friend circles or social groups. Shit goes left and then there's no turning back. Me myself that wouldn't happen. The few people I hang with don't effect my overall judgement unless I'm asking them to help me decide on something. Not about nothing, nothing I eat, nothing I drink, Not what kind of clothes I wear, not who I date, not the kind of people I date, how I talk, how I carry myself, what my hobbies are, what my interests "should be" , What is "cool", or what's "not harmful" or anything along those lines. I am only a sucker for very few and when I say a few I literally mean a few like 3 or 5 people if they asked me to do anything and I could do it I probably would. But with all that there's also the "so called friends" That care and only want the best for you and shit like that. Look if you legit do anything that I feels really hurts fucking hurts me you are done. If I see you around I'm not gonna talk, If you call me I won't answer, if you come to my house I'm not home. Like your all the way finished, I don't want anything to do with you. Your cut and with that being said someone I thought I knew said something that really didn't sit well with me. As you guys know I haven't had the most spectacular past 3 to 5 days and I haven't been in a real happy mood either. So a friend of mine I thought was confiding in me or was just venting or whatever is talking about how her pop is spending money on her and she's pretty much complaining about it. Oh I don't want my dad spoiling me that's my boyfriend's job, I don't want my dad spending on me and blah blah blah. I can't tell you how overcome with anger I was hearing this bullshit. First off this person IS NOT in any kind of relationship with anyone as far as I knew at the time. Thus the person spending any kind of money on you is yourself right? You wish you could have this, ooh you need that. Yet your loving, doting father is completely willing to drop stacks and stacks of money to get his precious little pumpkin what the fuck she desires and you have the fucking audacity to fucking complain about it!!!? I was having the worse possible experience personally with my dad at the time, she knows this.....Yet had the nerve to come out of her mouth with that bullshit...are you kidding me? You throwing a fucking fit because your days buying you shit?? GEE I WISH MY DAD WASN'T BEING A HUGE D-BAG AND BE TOTALLY WILLING TO BUY ME WHATEVER THE HELL I WANTED!! But hey!! not all of us are that fucking lucky!! With that being said and to end this Rant. I'm done trying to get to anyone younger then me that doesn't have an adult lifestyle way of thinking. Childish, bratty, immature behavior like that I bound to make me blow a gasket and hurt somebody so, I do decide to reach out and get to know any new people they have to have a mature mindset otherwise it's a no go, we will never be more then just people that talk when were around each other. Sorry for this horrific rant you guys, I just needed to get this off my chest and now I'm gonna go do things that de-stress me and make me happy like draw, eat and write in that order.
I'll catch you guys later. <3
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