Sorry for being away for so long so here's a werid dream I just woke up from ;D

This was a dream I had just a few hours ago.

There 2 people myself and a co-worker, I don't remember what our jobs were but we were sent to this house and when we got inside shit got weird. We started  getting chased around by these partially naked men with glossy eyes. They kept saying they were gonna eat us. We even had to use a few objects to beat some of the men to death to get them to stop chasing us, eventually we got to this large room that kinda resembled a locker room. It was really spacey and had lockers all along the walls. After checking everywhere the room seemed to be safe so we sat down and started talking quietly. eventually my co-worker who was male admitted that he had feelings for me and that he was convinced we were probably going to die here and that he needed to let me know that before we died. I told him that we aren't going to die, he tried to move in to kiss me and then we heard the door to room slam open. He shrieked a bit and I gasped pulling him into a large locker that was close by and told him to shush. he was whimpering and it seemed a little to loud for me so I put my hand over his mouth. I could feel him trembling and well I was scared to but I was trying to keep calm. The room wasn't brightly lit but it was dim and we saw a tall dude waddle into the room he looked around and started walking around the locker room. He looked normal but I couldn't tell and I didn't want to take any chances. I whisper as quiet as I can to my co-worker if you still have your phone turn on silent, the last thing we want is whoever this is finding us because one of our phones went off. After
he leaves I tell my co-worker to start searching things for some sort item we can use to defend ourselves with. We only found some clothes and other useless items. We eventually left that room and started walking slowly toward another room that seemed to be smaller, my co-worker ducked and tried to keep low as I looked around for some stuff. I hear a door and whip around ducking down a bit and I see my co-worker waving his arm at me, I crawl my way over and it leads into a kitchen.
We'll be able to at least get some knives from in here. He agrees and also admits he's a little hungry, I say we should get some weapons first then worry about food. I grab about 3 big knives and 2 small but long knives and a bottle of dish liquid. He ended up grabbing a meat pounder and a ball of twine and a torch. He asked me why I grabbed the dish liquid, it was to keep anyone from chasing us and
to also mark where we've been or even make a barrier so we can't be followed by anyone. Now we need to get the hell outta here because I'm pretty sure whoever we were suppose to find isn't here.
my co-workers keeps scanning the room as we exit the kitchen and enter a living room like area, this wasn't the way we came in but it could be near the entrance of the house. We wonder
around for the while, and see a big room that looks familiar and I remember seeing a certain vase that we passed when we entered the first time. I tell him this is probably the entrance and I pull
out my dish soap and pour it on the some of the chair and other decorative items then the floor right behind us. He asked me why I'm doing that and I said were burning this place, he nods and ask why
I sigh and say ask him if he would want to be responsible if these cannibals decided to leave and make their way into the city and started eating people, he shook his head no. I told him to open
the front door and check to see if his car was still there and to hand me the torch, he handed me the torch and pulled out his meat pounder, as he slowly opened the front door and peeked outside to check for his car. He said he saw it and he pulled out his keys and unlocked his doors.
We heard something moving toward us as I flicked on the torch and sprayed even more dish soap behind us and a little out the front door I told him to go to the car and start it up I'll be right
behind him. Of course he didn't want to leave me but I told him I'll be fine after I light up this soap we can leave safely and besides that I'm faster then him so I'd be able to get away. He nods and jets out to his car right as I lean down to light the soap I hear something running toward me. I look up and
there's a huge dude running toward the front door where I am. I hurry and light the soap right as it ignites I start to run and I pull the door closed behind me. I hear the man starting to scream as I look back for a split second and see fire in the windows and a shadow of the huge man trying to put himself out. I climb into the car my heart racing and my co-worker asks me if I'm ok, I just yell at him to get us the hell outta there and he revs up his engine and we pull off back the way we came. I check my phone as we start to get further and further away from the house fire getting even larger. I sigh in relief and see that I have a signal again, I check the messages I had gotten from our boss the one who had us go there in the first place. I called him and there was no answer. I found this to be suspicious so I told my co-worker to take us to the police station it was pretty late but I'm sure there was bound to be someone there who could help us or at least someone to report that house too. We arrive and there are a few officers they look at us like were crazy because we did happen to look
ragged when we walked in. "uhh....good evening? " I sigh and tell them I have something extremely important to report. They get out their paperwork and ask what happened I explain everything and they say there had been a few disappearances around that area and that they may
have found their crime scene. I gave them my bosses name and address and said that he was the one that sent us there and once we got inside we attacked by men that were cannibalistic. They all gasped and asked if we were ok. I said I was fine just shaken up neither of us were bitten or
anything just a few scratches. I also admitted that It was my idea to burn that house down so they might not find too much. My co-worker said we were lucky to be alive the place was huge and if we hadn't of tried retracing our steps  we may have gotten stuck in there. With my quick thinking we were able to make it out alive, we was extremely grateful. The police thanked us and said we will have a few squad cars go and visit your bosses place. Maybe he was sleeping soundly after thinking
he sent us off to our deaths, or he may have ditched his phone to attempt to relocate after sending us to that place. Either way the police will find out what was going on and we will hear back from them with news when they eventually get some. I thanked my co-worker as we left the station and starting making our way back to my place. He said he would have sacrificed himself to them to spare me if he needed too. I said he wouldn't need to do that who would have gotten us out of their because I didn't
know how to drive. he chuckled and we got to my place. I told him he could spend the night if he wanted to, he agreed and I pointed him to the bathroom where he took a shower and I pulled out some left overs from the previous night. He came out looking completely refreshed. I told him he could help himself to the left overs since he mentioned before that he was hungry, he nodded and went into the kitchen I left to take my shower and that was the end of it.

Heylo guys :D

It's been alittle bit since I posted last, I know I know you've missed me X3 No need to lie. I've been working going to cool events and researching some alternative lifestyles for myself. Like my random poking around on the internet may have just change my life. I have stumbled across this program or club sort of thing called the Barefoot writer, Where after joining their club and completing some sort of training, I would get Big bucks, just to write. You guys know I love to write I really do sometimes I'm good at it and other times not so much. If I could make like 1,000 or more  Week just by spending let's say 3 or 5 hours on a writing project for someone and they pay like 50$ an hour so man !! Why would I not go for something like that. I've already signed up for the free breakdown brochure which was like 49 pages I read through it, I noted down the avenues I was interested in. I just need to wait til I get paid again from my job and I'll pay their subscription fee to join. I've been poking around n digging and digging. I'm checking food book twitter, youtube, I'm checking everywhere. Because we all know their all sorts of get rich quick schemes on the internet like "OH you can make so and so amount of money if you join our site or our program we just need to get you in once you send up $129.76 plus tax or someshit like that" Someone thinks it's too good to be true, doesn't check the backround of the "so called program"  and ends up getting scammed for a huge amount of money. Or it could be a low amount of money like let's say 34.96 or something you send them the amount they ask for a day or too later your bank account is emptied out. Yeah...I'm ahead of the potential money theft which is why , When I do get paid and I take my chances with the Barefoot writers club, I'm not going to use my actual bank card, I'm going to use a gift card. So if they try to scam me by empting out my account the jokes on them because their will only get what they asked for. You say it' gonna cost me 50$ to join your club and your gonna send me your magazines ,other brochures and guides in the mail after I give you my money I want to see the results. Because on that gift card is only going to be the exact amount their asking for there won't be any hacking through that card to get my bank info because they aren't connected at all you feel me? So try as you may to steal my current life savings, your efforts will be vein because that card will have little to nothing on it. :D

If it does totally check out which I'm hoping it does I'll send the info you guys way and whatnot and I'll even put in a good word for you and after I start racking in some dough I'll even put up the money for my fans to join the barefoot writers club, but if you decide to try out for this before I have a chance to let me know if it works out. I've found the Awai, Professional writers , and Barefoot writer pages on facebook and I'll link them for you, We got people have recently joined and are sharing their stories and such. Again if this checks out and it's not total bullshit, I'll be set pretty much for life. My honey will be taken care my pop's will be taken care of my best friends will be taken care of. I'll have my dream house, enough money for college, maybe a car, a trip somewhere really nice, I could send my sissy some money, I'd have things built for me.I'd help improve my city, everything would just be awesome. But for now were here at square 0 I still have the crap job, struggling to get out into the world on my own, writing for fun and making very little money. The barefoot writers club could be 3rd heaven sent and provide me with the tools to total financial security for both me and my potential hubby. So wish me luck guys :D




Professional Writers club fb group page link. https://www.facebook.com/groups/professionalwriter/10154101669876796/?comment_id=10154102338306796&notif_t=like&notif_id=1460641882646395


Awai fb page link.
https://www.facebook.com/AmericanWritersArtistsInc/

Barefoot writers fb group page link.
https://www.facebook.com/groups/BarefootWriter/


Barefoot writer Magazine fb page.
https://www.facebook.com/BarefootWriterMagazine/

Hello darkness my old friend.

Hey guys, I am pissed. I just got my new hour for the week and not only do I have very little hours they are extremely inconsistent!!! I HATE inconsistency, it is the bane of everything I live for. I digs consistency, whether it's for things I do, my relationship or even events or other things I'm involved with. Consistency needs to be a thing, and this is my job were talking about !! I just really need to find something more calm that has more an independence feel to it, if I know what my tasks are and I'm given a time to get the shit done I'll be fine if I need any help I'll ask someone. These assholes kick n push everyone around and at the end of the day make them feel like shit and that their work is never good enough and I don't like that. Like you have 2 separate people doing the job of 3 to 5 different people at once and you expect them to jump from end of the store to the other have everyone at the drop of a hat. It's just total bullshit and it irritates the fuck outta me because if those said people decided they didn't wanna come to work that day who the fuck would you have to do that shit? NOBODY!! Their unappreciative bastards and I don't wanna work their anymore. They don't realize that this job pays literal SHIT and that everyone in their staff could just leave their shift and never come back and then you'd be left the manage n work every job in the place on your own. Like c'mon man. The reason I decided to write this was because I'm not at all happy about the hours I got. About 2 weeks ago I put in a change for the hours I could work upon being hired I said I could work any times. After being hired and getting use to working there, This is no longer the case. I know when I wanna be there and when I don't being their for more then 7 hours no matter what I do I leave with a throbbing headache and I doubt that's fucking healthy. For the sake of my goddamn sanity I shouldn't be in that damn place for more then 7 hours, there's too much that goes on and I can't take all that commotion. It's too frustrating and too stressful. And I certainly don't get paid enough to be stressing the fuck out on this job. right about I put this up I'm looking for new things and I'm calling some places back. I know my honey isn't gonna be happy to hear me ranting about this right when he gets up so I'll save it for at least 2 or so before heads out for work. But at the same time he already has a lot on his plate, I'll just rant to you guys for right now. My honey needs a break I'm sure he's had enough of my complaining lately. So the next few times I need to rant I'll just give it to you guys. This place literally sucks and I want out. Anyway I'm gonna go de-stress and I'll catch you guys later *Sigh*

I'm bored guys :P

It's currently 3:45am when I started writing this. I've been up since 10 something this yesterday morning because I had work, I haven't gone to sleep or even napped or anything. I was tired after I got home from work, but I talked to my honey and we chatted for a it he went to sleep. And now I'm just awake watching YouTube videos and thinking to myself. I'll probably window shop on amazon in alittle while or possible go to bed finally after I eat something. I dunno yet. Oh yeaahh! I bought a flat ironing brush from amazon today I've been wanting one for months now. I think it should arrive in about a week or so hopefully. Once It comes it'll be doing a video on my first use of it on my youtube channel, hopefully it does a really good job, I'll be really crushed if it ends up sucking XD Anyways before my writing becomes completely unreadable I'm gonna go watch a few more videos then head to bed, I hope you guys march has been going well :3 See you soon !!

Currently...

Hey guys it's been a little while, I know I know. not a lot has happens but few things have changed.  I am currently kinda mostly sorta close to changing jobs , as soon as I hear back from the place I'll be in there and I'll be making a good bit more of money then I'm making now. Which will make me hella happy because that'll be one step in the right direction toward my new ultimate plan that I have for the moment. Which is move out of my dad's place and hold down a place with my bf. I know it won't be easy it's gonna take a lot of time and a lot of effort. I'm willing to put in the time to make this plan a reality , it's something to work towards. And I always enjoy working toward extremely rewarding goals. I'll just list a few of the many benefits and or spoils I'd be getting from this plan. One of the biggest and most romantic I'd be looking forward to is being able to wake up beside the person I feel really really cares for me and loves me deeply. Which is a really nice and calming thing for me, Were going to be hitting our 8 month anniversary soon. I can hear you now "Oh my god only 8 months you sound like your totally in love!!" That's because I am. I no reason to lie to you guys, I don't think you'd really care, but I don't like to lie unless it's completely necessary. Like right now it's not needed so I'm not going to. I've gotten to know my honey over the past 8 to 9 months and I feel deeply connected with him. Our relationship isn't based on anything physical so it's not like he's pleasing my body and that's why I love him so much. He pleases my insides but in an emotional way. I am a very emotionally attached gal, I let him know from the git go all my disclaimers and he decided he could travel down this path with me. Loving me isn't easy, I'm going to be a pain you may even come to hate me at times and may even completely lose all feelings you have for me. But if you give me time get to know me and my way weird ways and my awkward way of loving I promise it'll last a lifetime and you won't regret it. I know he has an idea of what the final outcome of our relationship , which is living a life with an awesome strong wifey like me *smiles proudly* He's so sweet to me it makes my heart swell with happiness. Anytwades let me get back on topic XD The 2nd spoil to this plan would be growing together even closer as a couple since we'll barely be apart from each other unlike the beginning of our relationship where we were part the entire time. Were in a long distant relationship. It can be hard at times but I think it's going smoothly, the hardest part of this is not being able to share hugs and kisses , plus the fact that either of our internets may want to be a douchebag and stop working in the middle of a skype call causing the connection to act werid and then we wouldn't be able to see each other which sucks. But we make due. 3rd would be being able to organize a living space with my darling. 4th would be being able to cook for each other. I like cooking and I like cooking for other people so yeah. :3 That's about it for right now.



If you guys wanna see any vlogs or stupid videos of mine head over to my youtube channel channel here!

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCp7T9DrCw1rvDLYI4wKqX5A

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PS. Kind of (?) I forget if I mentioned it but I've started a lemon water challenge and I've slowly started eating more green veggies namely broccoli because it's my favorite it's going well, I'm starting to see and feel small changes but nothing major just yet!!! See you guys later !

Making choices...

As a growing adult more then often I have to make decisions about all kinds of things. Such as my social circle. I don't talk to large group of people to begin with, but even with that there are a lot of people I know that I talk too. there aren't a large clump of people that go out of their way to talk to me. Because well I'm not really a social person. I'm like this for a reason. I've seen what can and what does happen to people who decide they wanna have large friend circles or social groups. Shit goes left and then there's no turning back. Me myself that wouldn't happen. The few people I hang with don't effect my overall judgement unless I'm asking them to help me decide on something. Not about nothing, nothing I eat, nothing I drink, Not what kind of clothes I wear, not who I date, not the kind of people I date,  how I talk, how I carry myself, what my hobbies are, what my interests "should be" , What is "cool", or what's "not harmful" or anything along those lines. I am only a sucker for very few and when I say a few I literally mean a few like 3 or 5 people if they asked me to do anything and I could do it I probably would. But with all that there's also the "so called friends" That care and only want the best for you and shit like that. Look if you legit do anything that I feels really hurts fucking hurts me you are done. If I see you around I'm not gonna talk, If you call me I won't answer, if you come to my house I'm not home. Like your all the way finished, I don't want anything to do with you. Your cut and with that being said someone I thought I knew said something that really didn't sit well with me. As you guys know I haven't had the most spectacular past 3 to 5 days and I haven't been in a real happy mood either. So a friend of mine I thought was confiding in me or was just venting or whatever is talking about how her pop is spending money on her and she's pretty much complaining about it. Oh I don't want my dad spoiling me that's my boyfriend's job, I don't want my dad spending on me and blah blah blah. I can't tell you how overcome with anger I was hearing this bullshit. First off this person IS NOT in any kind of relationship with anyone as far as I knew at the time. Thus the person spending any kind of money on you is yourself right? You wish you could have this, ooh you need that.  Yet your loving, doting father is completely willing to drop stacks and stacks of money to get his precious little pumpkin what the fuck she desires and you have the fucking audacity to fucking complain about it!!!? I was having the worse possible experience personally with my dad at the time, she knows this.....Yet had the nerve to come out of her mouth with that bullshit...are you kidding me? You throwing a fucking fit because your days buying you shit?? GEE I WISH MY DAD WASN'T BEING A HUGE D-BAG AND BE TOTALLY WILLING TO BUY ME WHATEVER THE HELL I WANTED!! But hey!! not all of us are that fucking lucky!! With that being said and to end this Rant. I'm done trying to get to anyone younger then me that doesn't have an adult lifestyle way of thinking. Childish, bratty, immature behavior like that I bound to make me blow a gasket and hurt somebody so, I do decide to reach out and get to know any new people they have to have a mature mindset otherwise it's a no go, we will never be more then just people that talk when were around each other. Sorry for this horrific rant you guys, I just needed to get this off my chest and now I'm gonna go do things that de-stress me and make me happy like draw, eat and write in that order.




I'll catch you guys later.    <3

Hello.......it's meeee~

Hey guys what's up , uhh..it seems like things have calmed down for the most part my dad hasn't spoken to me since his little outburst and he happen to order food all on his own. So um.. what I'm gonna do is continue on and keep living my life and I'll try not to bother him I suppose. I decided to start a fundraiser to help me get a decent ahead start on saving up toward an apartment of my own. I want to have my boyfriend live with me too but he's really worried about how much financial baggage he's going to be bringing when he does come to shack up with me. Which ya know is a concern but still, I'm sure if he takes a bit from my life style our financial troubles won't be too tasking, but we've both lived completely different lives so I'll take time before he adjusts to my semi-dirt cheap living style. I just wanted to give you guys an update, let you know everything was alright. For the most part anyway. I'm probably gonna watch my bf sleep for a little while longer before I head to sleep too, so I'll catch you guys later!






Also hey if you happen to know any wealthy people who need a place to throw their money send them here!! Any donations would help !! Please thanka you <3

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And then there's this....I might be homeless soon maybe, possibly. *rolls eyes* no?

I know there are plenty of people who live in single parent households and maybe it's just me but sometimes when your parent is stressing for whatever damn reason they like to take that shit out on you. I don't get how it's soooo hard for full fledged ADULT to find and outlet for stress like walking or running , perhaps even playing video games. NO! LET'S TAKE THAT SHIT OUT ON OUR KIDS WHO ALSO ALREADY STRESSING THEMSELVES , BECAUSE THIER CONFUSED AND SCARED ABOUT THE NEXT DAY WILL BRING. And oh yeah did I mention for those of us who are young adults that have to go through this , us being the outlet of our parents rage I mean. Were struggling with our own things like our first few jobs, money management, trying to correctly find a balance between wants and needs, possibly relationship trouble if you happen to be in one, school, like college also which is school too of course among other things I can't think of right at this moment. After my dad had this little fit he ran back into his room and I suspect he'll leave me alone for the rest of the night unless he decides he wants me to use MY COMPUTER TAHT I BOUGHT WITH MY OWN MONEY to order HIM some food online and have it delivered to the house. I totally have the right to say no, because not even 20 minutes ago you told me to pack my shit up and leave. So if you so called " kicked me out " why in the FUCK would I use MY technological machine otherwise known as a computer to order my currently fuming and unloving father something to eat when you can use your own two legs to walk across the street to order and get it yourself. Mind you this hasn't happened yet. This is just a thought. If it's not that that he's gonna be talking to me about later on when he's done fuming he may actually be serious about kicking me out. I doubt it but it could happen. But I hope he realizes how much he'd be missing without me being with him. I can only hope he'll apologize and just order some food for us and we can just forget that his little outburst even happened. I really hope he was just extra steamed rice (yes this was intentional for comedic purposes) and just forgets that he even said that or I will be extra SOL with a side of fries and it's not even funny. I'm not too too good at saving my money I have a nice little amount in the bank currently but that doesn't mean I can support myself on my own. I could bills on time but I don't make enough to pay like 5 bills at time every month. I definitely don't make enough at my current job.  I don't have any kids so trying to get  a place would pretty difficult too. Antywades I'm gonna quit dwelling on this and try to perk up some. Hopefully my fellow struggling young adults you have outlet for your stress that isn't other people to a bad degree. I'm gonna go talk to my honey and watch cat videos I'm really sad now, I'll keep you guys posted ok? Gn Guys.

Yet another....

Today isn't going to be good day and this post is going to be shirt *Probably a lie* I'm currently heating up water so I can eat some oatmeal before I wonder out into the cold to walk to work. Then I'll have to deal with the stressful environment created by my co-workers plus I'm gonna be there for 8 hours and probably not get my well earned break because were too busy. I was super pissed and tired yesterday because 1 it was valentines day , 2  shouldn't have been working, 3 I should have been home, 4 I was tired as hell and 5 my dad was sick. but even of I told them that my dad was sick and that I couldn't come in they wouldn't let me use that excuse more then once because they didn't have proof, but oh ho hoooo I could have given them plenty of proof. But I'm not super into recording my dad throwing up and shaking in pain, so I passed on that. I sucked it up and went to work. I got yelled at to stop complaining because I was too loud about it and the other workers could hear it. 1st of all I've been working here for maybe little over a month now and this fast passed environment is extremely stressful, I should be able to complain as much as I fucking want. 2 if you don't like me complaining you could always send me the fuck home, but no you didn't. 3 I have a right to free speech so if I wish to complain fucking let me. 4 my heels hurt ALOT. 5 I wouldn't wanna hear you complaining because your dumbass didn't even do anything, your poking around on the computer doing god knows what and not  helping around the place yet wanting everything done at once. Like just because your a superior to myself and the other employees in the place doesn't mean you get to sit on your ass all day and not fucking help. That pissed me off too because I was dizzy, I hadn't eaten because I rushed out the door, trying to not be late to this horrible ass place. My heart was aching because I was worried about my dad and plus I missed my honey like crazy. I think I'm just gonna start looking for something a little easier. If not maybe "possibly" going back to my first job. the worse thing I'd ever have to deal with were angry customer calls and piles upon piles of undone clothes to be refolded. I sort of regret leaving. It was for the most part a friendly and calm working environment and I got to help people, it was nice. Younger me left because of conflict but it may be hard to get back in now, but I dunno. :I Anyways I think my water should be ready I'll be back home in awhile and if I'm not totally drained I'll let you guys know how my day went hopefully it wasn't too too crazy. See you guys later. <3 :c

Update time you guyyz.

A few things have happened and well things are a teensy bit hard right now. well my dad is sick, my job sucks , my bank s merging, I found my first grey hair , my dad is sick again , he's throwing up and getting really sluggish I'm worried. I'm trying to stay positive, it not working that well for me. People a talk too aren't helping my mood either. Some people just never grow up , I hope they snap out of it before it it's late. I'm trying to get my pops back in working condition, because for the about the last 5 days now I haven't really been able to have any alone time with my honey and I can tell he getting alittle anxious, and he's trying to be supportive, but he wants to enjoy me but can't because my dad is sick and then he makes himself sad then I have to cheer him up and THIS IS BEEN NOT A GOOD MONTH!! So far. Things shall get better and if things don't cheer up then I'll just have to make a wish, I haven't used any of my good karma lately and I'm sure it's only increased which means I have more good karma to use. I just needed to let you guys know what's going on with me I haven't put up anything over here since last month, like literally last month. But ya know---- *hear instance wind whipping outside my windows* Grreeeeeeeeeeeaaat.....Did I almost mention it's STILL FUCKING WINTER!! Yeah there's also that. I need some sun ASAP no cold, no wind chill no 35 Mph winds knocking into building and shit. I just want some nice sun I can walk around in and look cute. Anyways I need to go check this ginger tea I'm making for my dad that will hopefully help him with this nausea he's been having for about a week now wish me luck and I'll be back with another update in a few days. Love you guys See you later and thank you for your support.

Heello :D I've got neeeeeeeeewz for ya

Hey guys it's me again of course >:3 Well I'm not sure if any of the people that read my posts on this blog read any of my stories on my 2nd blog but just incase you don't and our bored enough to read through these silly posts please if you have time go over to my 2nd blog and show my stories some love. Pretty pleeeeeeease with sugar and whatever kind of ice cream you like on top because not everyone likes cherries. -____- the link for my 2nd blog is in my profile. And I'll also give it to your right here.


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I really work hard on my stories. It may not seem like it because maybe some things don't make sense or there may be some words missing and small misspellings but this is normal. I'll still try my best so I hope your support in the end and I'll keep working hard for you guys. :D I also wanna get my art out there. So. I think I'll add in a few of most recent pics in this post and on my 2nd blog I'll be releasing an all new story called 4 devils it'll be awesome I'd been thinking about it and I'm completely committed to it. I have my characters , my storyline and everything else I need Chapter art and all.  just ended a series I had going for way to long and I'm sorry if you've been reading it and I didn't end it sooner Things happened but I made it right and I hope you enjoyed the ending. :D Anyways I'm preparing a small filler and teaser images for today on that blog until Monday when the first chapter of 4 devils will be put out. I hope you guys look forward to reading it put a lot of work into it. So please please show me your support *smiles* I should get going though this post was planned to be short but as usually I don't know how to shut up. :P I'll see you guys in a few days. See yaa <3

 

 

Storms.........coming near you...

Hey everyone sorry about the absence between posts, been trying to get use to my hours at work but the hours are all over the place so it's hard to do that Anytwades that's not what this post is about. This post right here is about my desperate attempt to get my ass to this low paying job in a damn snow storm...so this morning I get up at about 5:00-5:10 right and leave the house at about 6:10, I had totally forgotten about the supposed 12+ inch snow storm we were suppose to be getting where I lived,  walk outside and I'm met with snow up to my damn knees......When I tell you I was already ready to back to sleep just because I just thrown my legs into such a deep dune of fucking snow, I was upset, hungry, sleepy and cold all at the same time. I decide to suck it up so I don't lose my job. So I run back upstairs, change into my snow boots and head back out into this storm down the street to the bus stop for work. The walk to that bus top woulda normally took me about 3 mins to do took me about 10 to do this morning. The snow fall was thick like someone was shredding chesse over my damn head it was hard to see the wind was blowing and the snow trying to eat my knees wasn't helping.  I finally get the bus stop there's 1 other person and old man. Standing, waiting but he was there before me. We talked a little, I moved around trying to stay warm I'd been standing out there for about 20 mins to half and hour under this heavy snow fall knee deep snow powder just to get to my job. I called 5 times!! Not an answer any of he 5 times , I only saw about 5 cars since I left my house and made it to the bus stop. I tried calling a few more times on my way home, still no answer. So I said fuck it, I headed home and undressed and went and laid in bed. Once this storm blows over I don't wanna hear any crap about any of the days the storm was going on and I had to be at work, be cause it was never going to happen. It was so bad here, Our mayor even ordered a ban on travel until the storm until further notice. If anyone was caught driving outside they'd be smacked with a heavy fine. The only people allowed to be out on the roads driving are snow plows and emergency personnel. Which is totally understandable I think t's suppose to be snowing for at least 2 days straight so if it was knee high on me today at like 6am and it's been snowing all day long I wouldn't be surprised in the slightest  if it was up to about the middle of my stomach the next time I go out. Anyways that's the end of my rant whatever hours I was suppose to be working from today until this coming Wednesday aren't happening because there aren't going to be any busses and I can't catch a ride from anyone and I'm definitely not walking 1.5mi from my house in knee deep or higher snow to work for 8+ hours making only 7.35 a damn hour!! Now If I was making about 10 or so I wouldn't complain as much but for pay that low don't expect me to start jumping through hoops, fuck that !!




Anyways wherever you are if you've been hit by a snow storm or anything please be careful out there and remember to bundle up I'll see you guys soon. Bye :D <3

My first day at work. :D

Hello everyone it's been about 10 days since my last post , so I'm gonna tell you guys about my 1st day at my new job. I learned to prepare breakfast meats , eggs , biscuits, and cinnamon raisin biscuits. I can't wait to feed some bread to the charbroiler it looks suu cool :O  for my first day It was a good day I'd have to say nothing stupid happened so that was good. Anyway I have to go out and get some new shoes for work so :I I'll catch you later in a few more days. Sorry for sucha short post but I gotta a lot of to do today, I'll see you guys later Byeeeeeee~

Thoughts.......

Hey guys it's me again , Have you ever run into a chick who is just seriously so self absorbed with herself that she thinks she's like the most attractive female alive especially when someone gives her a compliment. Like listen bitch.....your not as cute as you think you are, take a seat. PLEASE lol. If you know someone like that stay away from them because before long you'll start thinking that beauty is everything then you'll be breaking your damn back just to look good, only work that hard to make yourself look good for yourself or someone you really care about. Also if they don't wanna be with you because you don't look as good as you did when you first met when you may have been trying to impress the dude and so you busted your hump to make yourself look good for him n now that you've stopped and went back to looking normal he doesn't want to be with yo anymore, drop him. He shouldn't like you for your looks it should be your personality, your thoughts, your goals, your life style (unless it's seriously unhealthy)  that he should love about you, your looks should be a bonus. If he can't love you as soon as you wake up he doesn't deserve you. Looks aren't everything I can tell you from personal experience, I'm not the most beautiful girl ever, but my bf doesn't care. He actually prefers seeing my hair when it's all matted and curly after I wash it and it looks like a puffy tumbleweed, he doesn't care that I have occasional ache, that my eyebrows are a little bushy, that I should like 50 yr old man over the phone when I first wake up in the morning, he doesn't care if I'm thick or if I look like weigh 30 pounds (if I looked too thin he'd probably tell me to go eat something XD ) . The point is that your looks should only be a bonus to whoever your in a relationship with, it shouldn't be what's keeping you together. Before I start to rant out of anger I'm gonna go and draw I gotta request to do, I'll catch you guys later <3

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!!

Hey what's up guys !! Happy new year again :P I'm attempting to keep myself busy, by well just about anything I can think of because mother nature decided she wants to try and ruin my birthday week -____- So I'm just gonna relax, eat chocolate, read Hot Gimmick S, watch some YouTube videos, make plans for my birthday, and maybe draw abit, don't worry I'll be keeping up with both my blogs and my YouTube channel. I'm gonna get to the stuff so I'll catch you guys later sorry this was soo short I'm not really in a huge writing mood I know surprising right XD